Hal ini ditulis
semata-mata untuk mendapatkan mood..kerana sesungguhnya esok saya akan
menduduki peperiksaan Obstetrics&Gynaecology MED 3048 bagi tahun 3 MBBS.
Owh..skemA nye!
Once upon a time,
ayah asked me:
"kamu penah
sambut baby kat hospital?"
"penah. Tapi
sekali je la..tu pun sebab specialist tu tarik."
"semua org dah
penah try la?" (referring to my groupmates)
"nope..rasenye
takde kot..susah nak dapat peluang sebab dokter salu tak kasi"
"bagusla kamu
dapat..tu rezeki kamu la..nak jadi pakar sakit puan"
*conclusion yg
sangat menakjubkan*.hoho.
I never thought
about that until that day when this conversation happened.
Before I joined
medical school, I really wanted to become an obstetrician. But until I did
O&G posting, my mind changed. I am confused now.
When I told ayah
that I'm interested in General Medicine, he didn't look happy.
"takkan u nak
jadi dokter biasa je sampai bile bile. U should have at least 2 Masters. Have u
ever heard about NARITA pioneer? He had 5 masters with him. That's why he
became a successful man."
"u should take
another degree too..perhaps homeopathy..so that u will not become a rigid and
close-minded doctor in future. A doctor shouldn't listen solely to what
pharmaceutical agent promotion..coz they just want to sell their drugs."
"tengok kawan
ayah yang Dr A tu, die pun ade MBBS..then baru die study homeopathy."
When ayah asked me
whether I'm interested in surgery or not..definitely my answer was NO..and will
always be NO! My dad was fine with that. But he still wants me to become an
obstetrician.
"kalau tidak,
sia-sia lah ayah melabur..ni semua untuk kebaikan orang Islam. Kalau bukan
kamu, siapa lagi. Dah berapa ramai perempuan kat hospital yang delivered by
male doctor? There should be a way..that condition was not dharurat by any
means.."
Oh NO.. I can't
accept those! I knew it from the beginning. But I really need a good, healthy
and warm environment to grow better in this field. (which I couldn't find it
yet)
When I did
Reproductive block during my second year, I wished to get an 'A' so that my
ambition to become an O&G specialist would be brighter..but the results
came out B+. I was thinking about to ask faculty to recheck my paper, but I was
not moved because I didn't want to put shame on me.-.-
Eventually, my result changed on the exam transcript. It
was an A- (I have no idea how that thing was possible)
Tomorrow, I will be
doing my O&G written exam. and again my wish is the same. I want to get an
A.
Wish me luck~
O Allah..please
guide me..insyaAllah I'll try my best.
wassalam
