Mood O&G please

Hal ini ditulis semata-mata untuk mendapatkan mood..kerana sesungguhnya esok saya akan menduduki peperiksaan Obstetrics&Gynaecology MED 3048 bagi tahun 3 MBBS. Owh..skemA nye!

Once upon a time, ayah asked me:

"kamu penah sambut baby kat hospital?"

"penah. Tapi sekali je la..tu pun sebab specialist tu tarik."

"semua org dah penah try la?" (referring to my groupmates)

"nope..rasenye takde kot..susah nak dapat peluang sebab dokter salu tak kasi"

"bagusla kamu dapat..tu rezeki kamu la..nak jadi pakar sakit puan"

*conclusion yg sangat menakjubkan*.hoho.

I never thought about that until that day when this conversation happened.

Before I joined medical school, I really wanted to become an obstetrician. But until I did O&G posting, my mind changed. I am confused now. 

When I told ayah that I'm interested in General Medicine, he didn't look happy.

"takkan u nak jadi dokter biasa je sampai bile bile. U should have at least 2 Masters. Have u ever heard about NARITA pioneer? He had 5 masters with him. That's why he became a successful man."

"u should take another degree too..perhaps homeopathy..so that u will not become a rigid and close-minded doctor in future. A doctor shouldn't listen solely to what pharmaceutical agent promotion..coz they just want to sell their drugs."

"tengok kawan ayah yang Dr A tu, die pun ade MBBS..then baru die study homeopathy."

When ayah asked me whether I'm interested in surgery or not..definitely my answer was NO..and will always be NO! My dad was fine with that. But he still wants me to become an obstetrician.

"kalau tidak, sia-sia lah ayah melabur..ni semua untuk kebaikan orang Islam. Kalau bukan kamu, siapa lagi. Dah berapa ramai perempuan kat hospital yang delivered by male doctor? There should be a way..that condition was not dharurat by any means.."

Oh NO.. I can't accept those! I knew it from the beginning. But I really need a good, healthy and warm environment to grow better in this field. (which I couldn't find it yet)

When I did Reproductive block during my second year, I wished to get an 'A' so that my ambition to become an O&G specialist would be brighter..but the results came out B+. I was thinking about to ask faculty to recheck my paper, but I was not moved because I didn't want to put shame on me.-.-

Eventually,  my result changed on the exam transcript. It was an A- (I have no idea how that thing was possible)

Tomorrow, I will be doing my O&G written exam. and again my wish is the same. I want to get an A.

Wish me luck~

O Allah..please guide me..insyaAllah I'll try my best.

wassalam